word or look happens to set you 
right again this is an extremely uncomfortable  of 
. 

I must guard against it. I must not allow my wordnetanger to 
get way. Sensitive it is, I am aware, quick to feel sore, 
and to take wordnetanger ; but I am not a thoroughly ill-tempered 
woman. Doctor Urquhart does not think so : he told me 
he did not. One day, when I had been very cross with 
him, he said " I had done him no harm ; that I often did 
him good." 

Me to do good to Doctor Urquhart ! What an extra- 
ordinary  ! 

I like to do people good to do it my own self, too a 
mean , perhaps, yet it is a , and I was 
pleased with this saying of Doctor Urquhart's. If I could 
but believe it ! I do believe it sometimes. I know that I can 
make him smile, let him look ever so grave; that something 



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in me and my ways interests and amuses him in an inglo* 
rious, kittenish fashion, as I said ; yet, still, I draw him 
out of himself, I make him merry, I bring light into his 
face, till one could hardly believe it was the same face that 
I