earthquake, though nothing could be more terrible in its
nature, or more immediately directing to the invisible Power which alone
directs such ; yet no sooner was the first wordnetfear over, but the
impression it had made went off also. I had no more sense of God, or his
judgments, much less of the present affliction of my circumstances being
from his hand, than if I had been in the most prosperous condition
of life.

But now, when I began to be sick, and a leisurely view of the 
of death came to place itself before me; when my  began to sink
under the burden of a strong , and nature was exhausted with
the violence of the ; , that had slept so long, began to
awake, and I began to reproach myself with my past life, in which I had
so evidently, by uncommon wickedness, provoked the justice of God to lay
me under uncommon strokes, and to deal with me in so vindictive
a manner.

These reflections oppressed me from the second or third day of my
, and in the violence, as well of the  as of the dreadful
reproaches of my , extorted some words from me, like praying
to God, though I cannot say they were either a prayer attended with
wordnetdesire, or with ; it was rather the voice of mere