! is there no purifying power in such wordnetdesire as mine? Are
there plague-spots of past wickedness on my  which no
after- can wash out?

"Who can tell? There is something wrong in our married life--
I can only come back to that. There is some adverse influence
that neither he nor I can trace which is parting us further and
further from each other day by day. Well! I suppose I shall be
hardened in time, and learn to bear it.

"An open carriage has just driven by my window, with a nicely
dressed lady in it. She had her husband by her side, and her
children on the seat opposite. At the moment when I saw her
she was laughing and talking in high --a sparkling,
light-hearted, happy woman. Ah, my lady, when you were a few
years younger, if you had been left to yourself, and thrown
on the world like me--


"October 11th.--The eleventh day of the month was the day (two
months since) when we were married. He said nothing about it
to me when we woke, nor I to him. But I thought I would make it
the occasion, at breakfast-time, of trying to win him back.