 and Miss Ashford were bathing my temples with lavender water, while Sir William held one of my hands between his, and as soon as he found that I was recovering, press'd it gently, and withdrew; saying that he supposed ladies understood how to manage one another better, in such circumstances, than he—his calmness amazed me! in short the various emotions of my mind, for some time, are not to be expressed.
I determined, on the instant, to return to Southfield directly, let the consequence be what it would; and never to suffer

Lord Lucan to come into my sight again; but, alas! when I attempted to rise, I found it impossible; the agitation of my mind, had disorder'd my whole frame; my illness encreased every moment, a messenger was dispatched for a physician, but before he could arrive—
When Sir William was informed of my misfortune, he raved and stamped like a mad-man; said I must have designed to destroy his heir, out of perverseness, or I would certainly have acquainted him with my situation—while, Heaven knows, I would have given my own life, with pleasure, to have saved my child.
I continued in a state of such extreme weakness, for four days, that I saw no creature but Benson, who had been sent

for express, the doctor, and Harriet who wept continually by me—I never can forget the dear girl's tenderness.
On the fifth morning, Sir William came into the room, and with an air of the utmost disatisfaction, told me he was very sorry for the loss of his boy, but hoped I should do well; and as he could not be of any use to a sick person, he had resolved to attend the meeting of parliament, and should set out for Dublin, with the Colonel and Lord Lucan, directly—that as soon as I was able, I might either return to Southfield, or follow him to town, as I liked best.—But that I need not be in a hurry to move, for his good friend had left orders that I should be as well attended, as if I were in my own house; and that Lucy Leister was now recovered,

and would come that day to Waltersburg, to keep me company.—He then gave me a cool kiss, and withdrew.
I rejoiced extremely, at hearing that Lord Lucan was to go with Sir William; for though my life was at stake, I would not have remained in the same house with him, after my husband had left it; besides it saved me the
