 in the opinion of this wise and honest generation, by whose example and
advice I have, since that time, been a little reformed in point of prudentials,
tho' I still retain a strong tendency to return to my primitive way of thinking.
    When I quitted Mr. S--, after the sacrifice I had made, and returned to my
own bed, it may perhaps be supposed that I slept but little. True: I was kept
awake by the joyful impatience of revisiting my lover. Indeed I neglected no
opportunity of flying to his arms: when lord -- was in the country we enjoyed
each other's company without interruption, but when he resided in town our
correspondence was limited to stolen interviews, which were unspeakably
delicious, as genuine love presided at the entertainment.
    Such was my happiness, in the course of this tender communication, that to
this day I remember it with pleasure, tho' it has cost me dear in the sequel,
and was at that time enjoyed at a considerable expence; for I devoted myself so
intirely to my lover, who was desirous of engrossing my time and thoughts, that
my acquaintance, which was very numerous, justly accused me of neglect, and of
consequence cooled in their friendships: but I was all for love, or the world
well lost. And were the same opportunity to offer, I would act the same conduct
over again.
    Some there are who possibly may wonder how I could love twice with such
violence of affection: but all such observers must be unacquainted with the
human heart. Mine was naturally adapted for the tender passions, and had been so
fortunate, so cherished, in its first impressions, that it felt with joy the
same sensations revive, when influenced by the same engaging qualifications.
Certain it is I loved the second time as well as the first, and better was
impossible. I gave up my all for both: fortune and my father's favour for the
one; reputation, friends, and fortune for the other. Yet, notwithstanding this
intimate connexion, I did not relinquish the world all at once; on the contrary
I still appeared at court, and attracted the notice and approbation of my royal
patroness; I danced with the p- of W-; a circumstance which so nearly affected
Mr. S-, who was present, that, in order to manifest his resentment, he chose the
ugliest woman in the ball for his partner; and I no sooner perceived his
uneasiness than I gave over, with a view of appeasing his displeasure.
    Without repeating particular circumstances, let it
