 could not have gone from her in this way. Forgetting her own pride,
her own power of dissimulation, she did not believe it possible for him so to
disguise tenderness. She would listen to no argument of hope, but crushed her
heart with perverse cruelty.
    The annual payment of money had been a link between him and her; when she
signed the deed releasing him, the cold sweat stood on her forehead.
    She would reason. Of what excellence was he possessed that her life should
so abandon itself at his feet? In what had he proved himself generous or capable
of the virtues that subdue? Such reasoning led to self-mockery. She was no
longer the girl who questioned her heart as to the significance of the vows
required in the marriage service; in looking back upon those struggles she could
have wept for pity. Love would submit to no analysis; it was of her life; as
easy to account for the power of thought. Her soul was bare to her and all its
needs. There was no refuge in ascetic resolve, in the self-deceit of spiritual
enthusiasm. She could say to herself: You are free to love him; then love and be
satisfied. Could she, when a-hungered, look on food, and bid her hunger be
appeased by the act of sight?
    Thus long she had held up, but despair was closing in upon her, and an
anguish worse than death. She must leave this house and go where she might
surrender herself to misery. There was no friend whose comfort could be other
than torment and bitter vanity; such woe as hers only time and weariness could
aid.
    She was rising with the firm purpose of taking leave of Stella when a
servant came to her door, announcing that Mr. Eldon desired to see her.
    She was incredulous, required the servant to repeat the name. Mr. Eldon was
in the drawing-room and desired to see her.
    There must have been some error, some oversight in the legal business. Oh,
it was inhuman to torture her in this way! Careless of what her countenance
might indicate, she hastened to the drawing-room. She could feign no longer. Let
him think what he would, so that he spoke briefly and released her.
    But as soon as she entered the room she knew that he had not come to talk of
business. He was pale and agitated. As he did not speak at once she said:
    »I thought you were gone. I thought you left England last night.«
    »I meant to do so, but found
