 recovered my strength, we went to B-- Castle, where we kept open
house: and while we remained at this place, lord B-- received a letter from lord
--, dated in November, challenging him to single combat in May, upon the
frontiers of France and Flanders. This defiance was sent in consequence of what
had passed betwixt them long before my indisposition, at a meeting in a certain
tavern, where they quarrelled, and in the fray my lover threw his antagonist
under the table. I counselled him to take no notice of this rhodomontade, which
I knew was void of all intention of performance; and he was wise enough to
follow my advice; resolved, however, should the message be repeated, to take the
challenger at his word.
    Having resided some time in this place, we returned to the other
country-house which we had left, where lord B-- addicted himself so much to
hunting, and other male diversions, that I began to think he neglected me, and
apprized him of my suspicion; assuring him, at the same time, that I would leave
him as soon as my opinion should be confirmed.
    This declaration had no effect upon his behaviour, which became so
remarkably cold, that even Mr. R--, who lived with us, imagined that his
affection was palpably diminished. When I went to town, I was usually attended
by his cousin, or this gentleman, or both, but seldom favoured with his company;
nay, when I repaired to Bath, for the re-establishment of my health, he
permitted me to go alone; so that I was quite persuaded of his indifference; and
yet, I was mistaken in my opinion: but, I had been spoiled by the behaviour of
my first husband, and Mr. S--, who never quitted me for the sake of any
amusement, and often resisted the calls of the most urgent business, rather than
part from me, tho' but for a few hours. I thought every man who loved me truly,
would act in the same manner; and whether I am right or wrong in my conjectures,
I leave wiser casuists to judge. Certain it is, such sacrifice and devotion is
the most pleasing proof of an admirer's passions; and Voyez moi plus souvent,
&amp; ne me donnez rien, is one of my favourite maxims. A man may give money,
because he is profuse; he may be violently fond, because he is of a sanguine
constitution; but if he gives me his time, he gives
