 I am afraid I did not always conceal the contempt I
felt in return. Miss Jobson chose to pass some time at Tunbridge
previous to her marriage. Thither my father followed her; and I went
with him, eager to make my first appearance in public, and to see
whether the prophecies of the Duchess would be fulfilled.

'This experiment was made in a party from Tunbridge to Lewes Races,
where I had the delight of dancing for the first time in public, and of
seeing the high and old fashioned little head of Miss Jobson, who
affected to do something which she thought was dancing also, almost at
the end of the set, while I, as an Earl's daughter, was nearly at the
top. Had I been ever accustomed to appear in public, these distinctions
would have been too familiar to have given me any pleasure; but now they
were enchanting; and, added to the universal admiration I excited,
intoxicated me with vanity. My partner, who had been introduced to me by
a man of high rank the moment I entered the room, was a gentleman from
the West of England, who was just of age, and entered into the
possession of a fortune of eight thousand a year.

'Mr. Trelawny (for that was his name) followed us to Tunbridge, and
frequently danced with me afterwards. Educated in obscurity, and without
any prospect of the fortune to which he succeeded by a series of
improbable events, this young man had suddenly emerged into life. He
was tolerably handsome; but had a heavy, unmeaning countenance, and was
quite unformed. Several men of fashion, however, were kind enough to
undertake to initiate him into a good style of living; and for every
thing that bore the name of fashion and ton, he seemed to have a violent
attachment. To that, I owed his unfortunate prepossession in my
favour.--I was admired and followed by men whom he had been taught to
consider as the arbiters of elegance, and supreme judges of beauty and
fashion; but they could only admire--they could not afford to marry an
indigent woman of quality; and they told Trelawny that they envied him
the power of pleasing himself.--So Trelawny was talked to about me, till
he believed he was in love. In this persuasion he procured a statement
of his fortune to be shewn to my father, by one of his friends, and made
an offer to lay it at my feet; an offer which, tho' my father would have
been extremely glad to have me accept, he answered by
