 which was
so natural for the state we had pretended to. Whilst we were in this quandary,
the landlady takes the candle and lights us to our apartment, through a long
yard, at the end of which it stood, separate from the body of the house. Thus we
suffer'd ourselves to be conducted, without saying a word in opposition to it;
and there, in a wretched room, with a bed answerable, we were left to pass the
night together, as a thing quite of course. For my part, I was so incredibly
innocent as not even then to think much more harm of going into bed with the
young man than with one of our dairy-wenches; nor had he, perhaps, any other
notions than those of innocence, till such a fair occasion put them into his
head.
    Before either of us undressed, however, he put out the candle; and the
bitterness of the weather made it a kind of necessity for me to go into bed:
slipping then my cloaths off, I crept under the bed-cloaths, where I found the
young stripling already nestled, and the touch of his warm flesh rather pleas'd
than alarm'd me. I was indeed too much disturbed with the novelty of my
condition to be able to sleep; but then I had not the least thought of harm.
But, oh! how powerful are the instincts of nature! how little is there wanting
to set them in action! The young man, sliding his arm under my body, drew me
gently towards him, as if to keep himself and me warmer; and the heat I felt
from joining our breasts, kindled another that I had hitherto never felt, and
was, even then, a stranger to the nature of. Emboldened, I suppose, by my
easiness, he ventur'd to kiss me, and I insensibly returned it, without knowing
the consequence of returning it: for, on this encouragement, he slipped his hand
all down from my breast to that part of me where the sense of feeling is so
exquisitely critical, as I then experienc'd by its instant taking fire upon the
touch, and glowing with a strange tickling heat: there he pleas'd himself and
me, by feeling, till, growing a little too bold, he hurt me, and made me
complain. Then he took my hand, which he guided, not unwillingly on my side,
between the twist of his closed thighs, which were extremely warm; there he
lodged and pressed it, till raising it by degrees, he made
