, of
which that he had hurt me ... he kill'd me ... I should die ..., were the most
frequent interjections. But now, after repeated attempts, in which he had not
made the least impression towards gaining his point, at least for that time, the
pleasure rose so fast upon him that he could not check or delay it, and in the
vigour and fury which the approaches of the height of it inspir'd him, he made
one fierce thrust, that had almost put me by my guard, and lodged it so far that
I could feel the warm inspersion just within the exterior orifice, which I had
the cruelty not to let him finish there, but threw him out again, not without a
most piercing loud exclamation, as if the pain had put me beyond all regard of
being overheard. It was easy then to observe that he was more satisfy'd, more
highly pleased with the supposed motives of his baulk of consummation, than he
would have been at the full attainment of it. It was on this foot that I solved
to myself all the falsity I employed to procure him that blissful pleasure in
it, which most certainly he would not have tasted in the truth of things. Eas'd
however, and relieved by one discharge, he now apply'd himself to sooth,
encourage and to put me into humour and patience to bear his next attempt, which
he began to prepare and gather force for, from all the incentives of the touch
and sight which he could think of, by examining every individual part of my
whole body, which he declared his satisfaction with in raptures of applauses,
kisses universally imprinted, and sparing no part of me, in all the eagerest
wantonness of feeling, seeing, and toying. His vigour however did not return so
soon, and I felt him more than once pushing at the door, but so little in a
condition to break in, that I question whether he had the power to enter, had I
held it ever so open; but this he then thought me too little acquainted with the
nature of things to have any regret or confusion about, and he kept fatiguing
himself and me for a long time, before he was in any state to resume his attacks
with any prospect of success; and then I breath'd him so warmly, and kept him so
at bay, that before he had made any sensible progress in point of penetration,
he was deliciously sweated, and weary'd out indeed: so that it was deep in the
morning before
